Willpower & perseverance : aut finisher, aut nihil!! (Endurance Trail Templiers 2010)
Thursday 8.38pm, I manage to close my eyes and fall into a profound sleep only waking up on Friday 1am, a bit before my clock. I head towards the starting line around 3.30am. It is cold on this late October morning. I hope to get warmer soon, with the 4am intimate start. The first kilometers are often an indicator for me, if not a determiner, of the race. After this troubled season, thinking back to my last finish line a very long year ago, I feel like a recovered skier, getting back onto skis after a bad knee injury. I run slowly, being aware of any single part of my body, listening to any single breathe out that would be stronger than another, any strange feeling. I stay focus on my head lamp ray on the ground, optimizing my energy to the maximum. I test. I analyze. I am scared. I do not want to cut the wound back open again, I do not want to live that again, I cannot fail. I will not fail. I want this line. I want it.
|One big face-covering smile...|
|110 kms, 4500m. ascent|